Thursday, October 9, 2014

31 Days of Issues {Day 9}: A Lifelong Endeavor

from pages 56-57:

Choosing to lay down our kingdom is a lifelong event.
Wouldn't it be nice if we could just get this right once and for all, and then never think of it again?
Do you see how even good motives lead me to independence?

This was a wonderful "a-ha" moment for me, a wonderful realization about me trying to control my life in a way I had never realized before.  

You see, before reading those statements I always expected that one day I would have arrived.  I thought I would get to the point where I had grown so much spiritually that I wouldn't feel like I needed God's help anymore.  I thought that's what He wanted me to strive for.  Admittedly, I sort of apologize to the Lord when I need His help, again, for the same struggle, again.  I would pray, Lord, I'm really sorry but I need help again.  Sorry ... maybe I'll eventually get better.

But you know, that's exactly where He wants me to be, always.  He always wants me to be in the place where I depend on Him for strength and never in my own strength.  He doesn't want me to "arrive" to the place where I no longer need His guidance and can operate independently from Him.  Grow spiritually?  Most definitely.  Become confident in my own ability to lead my own life?  No.  

Paul wrote these words straight from the heart of God Himself:

And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.”Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.  2 Corinthians 12:9

This weakness, the need for the Lord, will never go away.  He doesn't want it to.  Three cheers for weakness ... and the Strength that will most assuredly shine through.

1 comment:

  1. Love this. My favorite is your last sentence. I too apologize for needing the Lord again and again. It was nice to read this today. Thanks.