There has been an idea, a thanksgiving idea, playing over and over again in my heart for the last few months. The idea is this: oftentimes our biggest annoyances and inconveniences in life are in fact indicative of our richest blessings. The more I meditate on this truth the more loudly this truth rings in my heart and mind.
From time to time my facebook newsfeed holds a status or two from friends who are elbow deep in some form of a child's bodily fluids and aren't crazy happy about it. And I know it's unpleasant, I get it. I really do. Especially if it's the middle of the night or something. I really do get it. But you know what's worse than cleaning up something yucky in the middle of the night? Not having the opportunity to clean up something yucky in the middle of the night. I would willingly cut my own arm off 127-hours style to get the opportunity to clean up a stomach flu mess left behind my my Evie-girl. And you know why? Because that would mean she was here and she was thriving. And after the mess was gone and the linens were all in the wash, I would get to snuggle her to sleep. And after the stomach bug passed we would still spend our days together doing mommy-daughter stuff. But that's not even an option.
Oftentimes our biggest annoyances and inconveniences in this life are in fact indicative of our richest blessings.
With that thought in mind, here is my non-exhaustive thankful list for Thanksgiving 2013.
I am thankful for the times when I just want to escape and find a minute to myself because it means I have spent a day immersed in the needs of my precious son who is such a light to me.
I am thankful for the perpetual need to clean and tidy up and rake my yard because it means we have a wonderful home to call our own.
I am thankful for a kitchen mess to clean at the end of the day because it means my boys and I shared a special meal together.
I am thankful for the pain in my heart because it means I loved and lost. And there isn't one I would have rather loved more than my sweet Evie.
I am thankful for the heaviness I feel from time to time because it means precious mamas all across the globe have chosen to share their story of loss with me. It is a privilege.
I am thankful for books piled high and clinical assessments scattered everywhere because it means my husband has been working hard to finish his education and provide well for his family.
I am thankful for a schedule that feels a little too full because it motivates me to make each moment count and leave little time for idleness.
I am thankful for the many random facts in my head about the SuperHero Squad, Star Wars, and Rescue Bots, because it means I have spent hours watching, playing, and discussing my son's favorite things with him.
I am thankful for the questions and the doubts that keep me asking, seeking, and knocking because I know what the Lord promises one who asks, seeks, and knocks.
I could keep going, but I'll stop there. This Thanksgiving I just want to encourage you to be thankful for those things that don't seem necessary to be thankful for because, if we really examine them, I think we will realize that they most often point to our biggest blessings.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone <3