Wednesday, April 3, 2013

The Least of These

There is a great song by Audio Adrenaline called Kings and Queens.  It is a wonderful song about orphans and it urges us to "love the least of these" - those children left without love and without basic provision in the poorest places in the poorest countries of the world.  What a wonderful message.  

But that song has a different meaning to me.  When I hear about the least of these, I think of my Evie. She was the least of these.


The medical community made no qualms about what Evie meant to them.  Genuine questions regarding Evie's longevity were always met with a casual shrug, a slight annoyance and I knew what they were thinking, Why does it matter?  She's just going to die anyway.

Both Evie and I were looked at as a research experiment.  More than once they led me down the hallway, my bare belly exposed, to a highly specialized, newer machine, so they could "get a better look".  Get a better look at what you already know?  You just want to use your new toy.  At times I felt we were both being dehumanized - a baby girl with so many anomalies that she wouldn't survive, and a mother crazy enough to keep her.  

She was the least of these in the pro-choice community.  Certainly they wouldn't have bat an eyelash if Josh and I had chosen to "terminate the pregnancy".  Josh and I were once asked by a concerned individual why we were being made to "keep it".  In circles like these my sweet girl was resorted to an inconvenient creature to be disposed of without a second thought.  

The Lord says differently.  

You formed my inward parts ... I am fearfully and wonderfully made, marvelous are your works, my soul knows it very well.  (Excerpts from Psalm 139)

Evie was most certainly the least of these on this earth.  But no loger.  She has been clothed with robes of righteousness and her lowly body has been made like unto His glorious body (Phil. 3:21).  She is no longer last, but first (Matthew 20:16).

Here is the chorus to the Kings and Queens song.  I know it's intended message, but I can't help from seeing my Evie-girl all through it.  

Boys become kings, girls will be queens
Wrapped in Your majesty 
When we love, when we love the least of these
Then they will be brave and free
Shout your name in victory
When we love when we love the least of these
When we love the least of these



My heart has been so blessed in fully, recklessly loving the least of these.  I wouldn't trade my sweet Evie for anything.  <3

14 comments:

  1. I love that song (for obvious reasons) but now when I hear it I will think of your Evie girl as well. This is such a beautiful post and one that I think everyone should read. I think that we, as humans, have a tendency to dehumanize others in many areas and not realize the gravity of what we're doing -- or how much it breaks the Father's heart. Thank you for sharing such a deep part of your heart. I love you!

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    1. I love you too Lauren, thank you <3

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  2. This is a beautiful post for a beautiful girl in heaven. I am sorry you were both treated as an experiment by the medical community. I can't imagine. Know she is a queen and so loved by the Lord. You are very courageous for sharing this and your story to all of those around you.

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    1. Thank you so much Desiree, I appreciate your kind words. It's pretty amazing to think about what Evie has been transformed into ... probably better than anything I could think up myself!

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  3. This is beautiful. Amazing truths. I too love this song and it has different meaning for me but I LOVE your application and I'm thankful for it. Praying for you as you grieve the loss of your precious girl.

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    1. Thank you so much Erica for your sweet words. Christ's message is to love the least of these, a message that can be applied to so many. Thank you for your prayers <3

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  4. I agree with Lauren - it's a great reminder to not become desensitized in all areas. We all have our own hurts and imperfections, but we are created by a loving Father. Thank you for sharing this!

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    1. It's those that become dehumanized that need love the most. May we all have eyes to see!

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  5. I just love this post and am in awe t the strength the Lord has given you to endure this. Even though I have gone through losing my daughter, I did not have to prepare for it for 4 months and deal with the medical community. I adore the picture you posted, too. So very very sweet. :)

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    1. Thank you Myssi. I am so sorry for the loss of your little girl, it is the hardest of journeys. And Evie's pictures are so special to me, sacred almost. Thank you for your kind words <3

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  6. I love that song and thought of my Caleb the first time I heard it. Just the hope that he could be something great, when most people just see him as a dead baby. Thank you for sharing this song and your story. Evie is beautiful and your witness to carry her is what this world needs. Peace and Prayers

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    1. Thank you RyAnne. It hurts so much that our babies aren't seen by all as the wonderful blessing we know them to be. But one day, all will see <3

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  7. I like this post a lot, Sarah. I didn't connect the dots till you wrote this, but the "girls...wrapped in your majesty" is exactly how I felt when we were with our littlest girl.

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