There are many truths about God and His character in my head, things I know to be true simply because they are found in scripture. But, all pretense aside, they aren't exactly changing how I feel very much these days. It's like eating your vegetables - you know they are good for you, but it doesn't mean you feel like shoving fistfuls of green into your mouth any time hunger strikes. Some things in life involve conscious choices, willful acts in which feelings may not even play a part.
So, this special weekend dedicated to reflecting on Christ's death and resurrection, I am choosing to focus on what I know and not how I feel. And these are things I know:
I am a sinner. Times infinity.
Christ endured the cruelest torture and most ridiculing shame and ultimately died for my sins upon an old rugged cross.
Christ rose from the grave after three days. He conquered death.
He is now alive in Heaven and offers the gift of eternal life to all who believe on His name.
Evie is in Heaven.
Because I have trusted in Christ for salvation, I will see her again.
Simple truths, monumental ripples. The simplicity of the Easter story has never resonated in my heart so deeply as it does now.
Thank you Jesus. Really truly thank you. I'm sorry I don't feel like celebrating. I hope my choosing to do so anyway is a sweet smelling offering to your most holy Name.
Because of Your cross, my debt is paid.
Because of Your love, my sins are washed away.
Now all of my life I freely give.
Because of Your love, because of Your love I live.
-Phil Wickham, Because of Your Love