Wednesday, July 18, 2012

why I have hope

So many people have commented to me recently about how touched they are by my perspective in this whole situation.  While I do appreciate those sentiments, I must not be allowed to take any of the credit.  The reason I am able to cope with the idea of losing my baby has nothing to do with me and everything to do with Christ.  Allow me to explain ...

God sent His precious Son, Jesus Christ, to this earth over 2,000 years ago to die on the cross for the sins of the whole world.  John 3:16 says:

For God so loved the world that He have His only begotten so, that whoever believes on Him will not perish, but have everlasting life.  

When I was eleven years old, I came to the realization that I was a sinner (For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God Romans 3:23) and needed to accept what Christ did for me on the cross in order to spend eternity with Him in Heaven.  I prayed the simple salvation prayer, which goes something like this:

Dear Jesus, I believe in You.  I believe that you died on the cross for me and rose the third day and are now in Heaven preparing a place for me.  I want to accept Your gift of everlasting life and spend eternity with You.  Please come into my life and save me from my sin.  In Jesus' Name, Amen.

Because I accepted what Christ did for me on the cross and made the decision for salvation, I am promised an eternity in Heaven when I die.  For me departing this life is not the end, but rather the beginning of a perfect eternity with the Creator.  There will be no pain or heartache, just perfection and peace.  

My sweet Evie will be much too young to make her own decision for Christ, but that does not mean she is excluded from Heaven.  We know from the story of David losing his infant son in 2 Samuel 12:15-23 that when babies die, they are taken to Heaven.  No matter how long my Evie is alive on this earth (minutes? hours?), once she takes her final breath she will be whisked into the Father's arms.  Although the thought of her leaving my arms is almost too much to bear, I take great (great!) comfort in the fact that she will go straight into the perfect eternity I mentioned earlier, into the arms of the One who made her.

But it's not just our individual promises of Heaven alone that give me comfort, it's the fact that I will see her again.  I will see her again!  She will spend a few brief moments with us on this earth, but we will be together forever because of Jesus.  When I die and go to Heaven, she will be there.  I will hug her and kiss her and get to know her better than I ever would have here in this sinful world.  We will share the greatest mother-daughter time in an environment where there is no danger, heartache, loss, or pain.  How can I be bitter or angry or resentful to a God who promises that to me?  

Don't get me wrong, this process is far from easy.  Don't think I haven't cried more tears in the past two days than I ever have in my whole life.  This morning I literally woke up crying because my first conscious thought was of my baby girl.  But I can be sad about not having Evie and still rejoice in God's promises.  I can face the prospect of losing Evie because I know it's not the end.  Maybe for a time, but not forever.  

That sounds like a pretty good deal to me.  

If you are unsure of your salvation; unsure of where you would spend eternity once you leave this earth, I encourage you to pray the salvation prayer.  Here it is again: 

Dear Jesus, I believe in You.  I believe that you died on the cross for me and rose the third day and are now in Heaven preparing a place for me.  I want to accept Your gift of everlasting life and spend eternity with You.  Please come into my life and save me from my sin.  In Jesus' Name, Amen.

If you still have questions about the whole salvation process, please feel free to contact me (  I would love nothing more than to use this time in my life to reach others for Christ.  


  1. The most undeserved and infinite suffering (of Jesus)brought about the greatest pleasure for the greatest number of people (eternal happiness for God's children).

    The cross provides the only satisfying answer to the problem of suffering in the universe. Somehow, in God's administration, the suffering turns out to be worth it.

    God bless you, Sarah, as you apply the medicine of the cross to your wounded spirit.

    1. ...and as you apply it to ours. Evie might have enjoyed a nice convertible ride in the Corvette to get some ice cream.

  2. Hi Sarah, I don't know you but your in-laws church supports us. I just wanted to share this song with you...don't know if you've heard it before or expresses some of the things you've expressed in your blog about your baby girl.

    Praying for continued comfort and knowing the nearness of God.
    In Him,

  3. The song Glory Baby that "MacKim" shared is beautiful. If music brings you comfort here is another one that was special to me during a troubled pregnancy.

    Praying for you Josh, Sarah, Micah & Evie, for He who is in you is greater...

  4. Dear Sarah and Josh, you have the strongest and best ally in Our Father and Jesus and the Holy Spirit. David Rieke as usual has said it best that Jesus suffered undeservedly for you and me. He understands and sympathizes with His children. I have no words of wisdom except Christ. We care and love you, think about you and pray for you to receive that unimaginable strength and comfort that only He can give us.
    Grandpa and Grandma (YiaYia)

  5. Hi Sarah. I found your blog through Lauren's blog. of course as I sit here and cry for your evie I am in awe of your strength. I am in my 24th week of my third pregnancy but this little boy is the first I will get to hold. While I rejoice in my son who grows stronger each day I still mourn the babies who are waiting for me in heaven. when I lost them the only solace I could find was in my unwavering belief that my beautiful children were waiting for me in heaven. I am praying for you and your family to continue to find peace in God's love. our time here is so short compared to eternity in Heaven.