Thursday, July 26, 2012

this mama's prayer

After learning of Evie's diagnosis, so many friends and family have told me they are praying for a miracle of healing for our baby girl.  I can't thank you enough for that.  As Evie's mommy I most certainly can assure you I am at the front of the line boldly asking the Father to reform her insides and allow her to come home with us.  The same God who literally breathed creation can certainly form a small little bladder and all the necessary connections and grow her lungs to the perfect size and strength.  There is no doubt in my mind that God is capable of such a miracle.  


However ...


I do think I would be doing myself a disservice if I assumed that just because God is able to do a miracle that He will.  This idea is explained so well in an excerpt from Jennifer Rothschild's devotional workbook Fingerprints of God


I'm convinced the glory of God can be displayed in my blindness, too - even if God chooses not to show His glory through healing me.  Yes, it's an undeniable miracle for blind eyes to see.  But God shows Himself strong in the life of someone who suffers and still remains faithful.  It captivates us to see someone confined and constrained by trials and calamity who still bears the fruit of peace and righteousness.  That's when we see God's glory, because it can only be God fashioning such beauty from the elements of certain despair.


So, adding together a. the fact that God is certainly more than able to perform a miracle in my little girl's life and b. the fact that sometimes God reveals Himself best to us when we persevere in the midst of a trial, I have come up with c. my prayer:


Father if it is Your will, take this cup away from Me; nevertheless not my will but Yours be done.  
Luke 22:42


Please, please don't stop praying for a miracle.  We know that the effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much (James 5:16) and that the heart of God can be moved when we pray.  But please don't forget that God might want Josh and I to go through this trial for one reason or another.  And in that case, we need strength and wisdom and the peace that passes all understanding.  


I can't thank you enough for partnering with me in prayer.  It is such a comfort to know so many people are talking to the Father on our behalf.  Thank you, thank you from the bottom of my heart!  

3 comments:

  1. Well said, Sarah! And Mark and I are praying for God's best for you in this trial,
    Hugs & prayers,
    JoAnn

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  2. So true, Sarah! I think a Spirit-filled perspective involves being able to identify God's will in cases like this (all in His time as He does His work). When Teresa and I first got married we had these friends who were expecting a child before they were married. She told us how horrified she was when she was seven months pregnant with her belly sticking out like a bowling ball, and her boyfriend, while praying for their supper, prayed that she wouldn't turn out to be pregnant after all! At some point along the way, God's will becomes a little clear, and then maybe even quite clear, or maybe even irrefutable. I suspect that He will help you and Josh and all of us to have a pretty good idea of His will in this matter as time progresses. At some point we will ask ourselves, "Hasn't God indicated His will to us?" And the answer will be, "I'm pretty sure He has." And our duties and privileges will be clear.

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  3. my prayers are with you. i am visiting from lauren casper's blog

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