Thursday, August 18, 2011

embarking on a new journey

For those of you who don't know, my husband is about to start nurse anesthesia school at the end of the month.  It is a very grueling program and it will probably suck the life out of him.  He will basically be throwing himself into studying and has been told that the program is like working a 60+ hour week.  Yikes.  

We know what we're getting into, sort of.  For the complete story of how Josh got to this place, click here.

I think my biggest worry is finances.  Josh won't be able to work and I am not working either.  Well, not getting paid for the work I do I should say.  If I got paid for every wet diaper I changed or every kiss I gave, we'd be rolling in the dough!  But alas.  

A couple of weeks ago I actually had the opportunity to make some money.  A friend of a friend wanted me to watch their two and four year-old kids a couple days a week.  They were nice kids and a nice family and an even nicer house (they lived on a golf course so ... yeah).  But after meeting them and spending a day watching the kids, I honestly just did not have peace about committing to them for the school year and possibly longer.  

I can't really explain it.  I had been praying for direction and asking the opinions of trusted friends and family and I just felt much better saying no than saying yes.  Josh felt the same way, which just helped to solidify my decision.  

I realize this must sound crazy to some people.  I mean, if you have no money coming in and then the opportunity arises to make some, why wouldn't you take it!  I get it, I really do.  And I just don't know what to say except that the Lord did not give me peace about making that commitment.  I'm not sure why, He just didn't.      

Maybe one day I'll see why.  Maybe Josh will need me to be available at crazy times of the day.  Maybe Micah will just need to snuggle with his mommy a lot since his daddy will be busy.  Maybe the Lord is saving me from feeling harried and pressured to take care of my home, husband, baby, and someone else's family.  Or maybe I'll never know the reason until the Lord explains it to me in heaven.

At any rate, we are about to embark on an unknown path and the only thing I know for sure is that the Lord will be there for us leading us every step of the way.  It's a little scary, but that is really all I need.

1 comment:

  1. That's my favorite verse. I rely on it a lot. Looking forward to hearing allll about your guy's wonderful life that God is putting together! :)